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Recently the blogging world seems full of contradicting rules on how you should live your life and wronging people for doing differently. Firstly I’m going to put out there that I am entirely of a “live and let live” mindset, providing no one is getting hurt etc. 

It seems that you can’t do right for doing wrong at present. You can’t have too many luxury pieces, as your lifestyle is unattainable and may upset people who can’t afford it. You can’t only wear cheap brands as that’s not eco friendly. You have to be vocal about every issue, but have a non argumentative stand point on it, to avoiding upsetting anyone. 

As I said, I’m very much of a live and let live kind of guy. I’m obviously aware of most political, ethical, and ~everything in between~ issues and have my opinions on it but that's for another post!

I started blogging because I had wanted to get into the fashion industry since I was about seven years old and it gave me a platform to discuss what I loved. I never realised the responsibility that came with it. I don't think many of us 

foresaw

 'having a voice' and few know quite what to do with it!

I often feel I can’t celebrate any success without fear of making someone else feel guilty for being at a different stage in their life, or simply on an alternate path etc. I recently bought a new handbag after wanting it for so long I lost count, and yet I feel that I need a justification for doing so. Is I wanted it, saved for it and bought it not enough?

Sites like gurugossip seem to thrive on people living their best life, or blow the smallest mistake out of proportion. It's bloody exhausting! A lot of people seemingly despise people making money through blogging, and I'm not sure if it comes from a place of jealousy or simply misunderstanding but it's becoming a dated way of thinking. Every year when Black Friday is on the approach I simply wait for the snide remarks on affiliate links etc. It's tiring.

Bringing it back to basics, blogging is a lot of people’s jobs. Which requires making money. “Swipe up” stories, affiliate links and crazy posts on Black Friday are people’s income - it’s how I pay my rent, insure my car and do my food shopping. While I wholly believe that everyone needs to be both self aware, and aware of current issues both locally and globally, I do think we are simply allowed to pull it back to sharing something because we enjoy it every once in a while without fear of backlash. 

We are all in different stages of our lives, in different financial situation etc - the list goes on - but part of being an adult is recognising that, and choosing to digest what works for you. Whether that be following someone for their sense of style, their political views or just because you like their hair, take what you need from it and leave it at that. I think we are all looking for something in everything, when sometimes an image really is just an image.

What do you think? I'm pants at putting my 

thoughts

 into words so I hope this makes some sense!

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thoughts on online dating
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Ah, online dating. Is there any other way to meet people now? 

My story with online dating began I became single (obvs) and to be honest, I'm pretty sure the first thing I did after wiping my tears was download Tinder. Now, before you judge me - I work for myself, I don't meet people in the office. I have the same group of friends and frankly, I'm the instigator in doing things for the most part. I also have ME, so often miss out on going out etc. I really didn't think there was any way I'd meet someone new otherwise.

The first couple of months were weird, I didn't know what I wanted or what I was looking for and I never knew just how damn picky I was. I'm the first person to point out every flaw possible within myself, yet I didn't think I saw others like that. Here I was swiping past people for simply having 'weird eyebrows' or an ugly outfit on. Legit. Anyway, I did match with a few and that was fun, you can read more about dating

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I have friends who are so vehemently against using apps to date. Whether it be down to snobbery or simply not feeling safe talking to a stranger, it's their call. I on the other hand, actively encourage them but there are a few things I do find concerning.

1. I think we're becoming too judgemental. As I mentioned earlier, we're now examining people down to their choice in friends and shirts. We seem to have potentially lost that spark. We don't all end up with people we find fit our 'type' and yet Tinder/Bumble don't allow for that as if you're not instantly attracted to them you simply won't match with them.

2. It

can

be unsafe. I got very lucky in that all the men I met whilst dating were pretty normal and any that set off the slightest alarm didn't make it past the 'unmatch' button. There are some horror stories out there, but nonetheless I believe that not everyone is awful and as long as you keep your wits about you, make sure someone knows where you are (drop a live pin on WhatsApp!) and if anything flags then leave or stop speaking to someone then you can remain safe. Don't ever meet someone without doing some background research. It doesn't make you weird, it makes you wise!

On the brightest note, I met Kim on Bumble and he's a literal light of actual joy. We've discussed how our paths would never have crossed otherwise, so it just proves there are good humans on there. Just do it wisely eh!

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the weekly #002
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Birthday week, yay! I turned 25 on Friday so Kim whisked me off to Berlin for a nice weekend of wine and lots of food. We ate, pottered around the city and had a generally nice time. 

I also got a fair bit of work done this week which felt good. I often give into my M.E and sleep in until fairly late and work into the evening but this time I got up early and shot lots of content that had been hanging over my head and I feel so much better for it. Albeit very tired and looking a bit worse for wear.

Next week is full steam ahead with a hospital appointment as you read this, and freelance work Tues-Fri so it's going to be a long one! Kim's sister is also having a 30th party on the weekend so that'll be fun, and another hangover that I don't need!

I'm also going to do some meal-prep so that I am encouraged to eat well as I really meed to shift a bit of weight that I've gained as it's making me unhappy so that'll be boring as hell. I just freakin love pizza so much.

So that's about it really! Hope you had a lovely week.

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Back when I started blogging (we're talking 2010 or so here) most of us used to do a 'round up' post, whether it be of the week or even the month and I decided that I missed them so I am hoping to bring it back! I'm aiming for every Monday for just a little chat, but we shall see.

This week was pretty average in terms of work. I saw all three of my freelance photography clients,  did a few of my own bits and spend a lot of late nights editing. Kim came over a handful of times, and I went for dinner with Hannah, Millie and Lizzy on Wednesday which was very nice. We had ramen and I finished it for the first time in my life. I also got my nails done at London Grace with Josie which was cute.

My weekend was a little more lively as I had my birthday night out on Friday. I dragged 20 of my friends (who knew) to Lockside Lounge in Camden for a dance. It turned out to be pretty empty and we accidentally crashed a French rap night which was even weirder but it was still a good laugh. Saturday bought the laziest day I've had in forever, in which Kim and I laid in bed until about 12, only moving to make sausages and spaghetti hoops on toast and let Pepe out for a wee. We then shuffled to Kim's house and had a big bowl of pasta. Riveting.

Sunday was my fave as we went for a walk on Tooting Common with Kim's fam and Pepe of course, later going to Columbia Road for a wander in the rain and to refresh my very dried eucalyptus. We then finished the evening in Wong Kei, Chinatown with my Dad and sister. I over-ate, over-slept and over-enjoyed this day.

I've been thinking a lot about interiors this week - likely spurred on by Kim and I deciding to move in with each other at some point this year (won't be for a while!) so that's got me going wild on Pinterest, whilst also trying to source some Winter fashion inspo as I'm so done with big coats.

And that was my week, see ya next Monday.

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getting a puppy
Pepe x Petplan
Following on from Bear's five minutes of fame, I thought it was only fair that Pepe got his chance to shine too. When Petplan got in touch and asked if I'd be interested sharing my #Pethoodstory, naturally I jumped at the chance to talk about my newest furry son.

I thought the best way to go about it (without just sitting here gushing about how great he is) was to talk about the highs and lows of getting a puppy, as well as a few things to note if you're thinking of doing the same.

So, a bit of a back story; I'd wanted a pug for what felt like forever, but in 2013 I stumbled upon Tako on Instagram and knew I needed one of these funny faced little friends first. I spent years planning, but with being at uni and living in rented housing, I could never take the plunge. Low and behold, whilst doing my weekly rounds on websites for Brussels Griffons, I found two lil lads in need of a new home. I rang my mum, flapping and of course was told not to be so ridiculous. Three weeks later, Pepe was in the back of my car on the way back to London. 
*I'm going to pop in here that I was comfortably self employed at this point!

It all sounds pretty romantic, and to be honest it was. I've grown up with dogs so knew what to expect, and obviously I have had Bear for five years so was used to some responsibility, but then the reality of suddenly having a tiny furry puppy that needed constant love and affection hit. Having a dog is very different to a cat, it's a lot more work, a lot more walks and a fair amount more poop (sorry). 
Things to consider when thinking if a puppy is right, right now:
  • Can you be with him/her a lot? Puppies get separation anxiety if left alone a lot and need to build a routine. Usually not possible without a dog walker, or someone to look after them if you're employed full time.
  • Are you ready to commit 10-20 years of your life? Nothing bothers me more than people getting pets for vanity reasons, and then later rehoming them or worse, abandoning them. They're a tiny member of the family and should be treated as such. As much as I'd like to have got rid of my sister, the premise is the same.
  • Can you afford to insure, feed and pay for all the miscellaneous costs that come with a puppy? They're definitely not cheap! Insurance is a must in my opinion, as well as picking good food based on their size and requirements etc.
They're a few things to think about if you're about to take the plunge, and they're all totally worth it for the endless love and accidents on the carpet, promise! Pepe is an absolute joy, and honestly just seeing the smile he puts on everyone's faces is so worth it. I can't take him anywhere without someone stopping us to say hello, even if he does often woof in their face.

Now onto the fun stuff! Petplan have given me the chance to giveaway a £150 Amazon voucher (lots of good dog things on there) to one of you guys! They're asking you to share your Pethood Stories and fill in the below form. 
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five great things in 2018

Yay, a happy post! I thought Id'd get ahead of the new year posts and tell you about some nice things that have happened over the past year, as some of you might care.
1. I gave birth to my second son, Pepé. Lol ok I didn't birth him but he is my fur son. I brought this little bundle of constant pooping home in February and whilst it has been testing at times, he ultimately brings me (and everyone he meets) absolute joy.

2. Another new addition to the Meramo and pet clan was Kim. My new bff, lover and personal head massager. If you followed along through my dating woes, you'll remember I was very single, and whilst I did enjoy it, I'm very very very happy to have found a heck of a guy. He's very handsome too.

3. I made a real job and managed it for a year! Wahoo! Whilst I technically have been self employed since July 2017, 2018 marks my first full year going it alone. I'm very proud of myself, I've done some really cool campaign shoots for Oasis, spent a lot of time creating content with Josie and Niomi and all round had some laughs. It's been a good time.
4. I also think 2018 was the first year I really lived and did fun things. I went to lots of gigs, visited Scotland for the first time, took a trip with one of my best pals (blog post still to come from June lol) and generally said yes to doing way more. My M.E might be cursing me but I had a great time and I've got the battle scars, and a full sleeve of tattoos to prove it.
5. Way back in January I also started fresh in a new flat, on my own (before I found my flatmate!) and made a new home. I've always lived with friends or a boyfriend so it was a big change for me but I loved it in the end. I had so much freedom to do as I fancied, which worked well when saying yes to everything, but also just made me feel like an actual adult for the first time. It was kind of fun to stand on my own two feet for a while, even if I stand on Kim's a bit now.
So those were five good things that happened to me in 2018. I can't express how shit 2017 was for me, so I am bloody relieved to have had a fun year! Of course there was low points, but we don't need any doom and gloom here today so I won't go into them, plus you probably saw me moaning about them on Twitter.
What were your highlights of 2018?


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an ode to Bear
Bear Bear Bear Bear
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So remember I got a rather naughty puppy a few months ago? Well if you follow me on Instagram you'll be very familiar with Pepe. In fact, you might even follow him. He's an absolute character and I love him to pieces, but pre-Pepe I was also a Mum (yes) to Bear. My five year old tabby cat, who's featured on this blog a few times himself - see here if you want to die at kitten photos.
I got him when I was lonely having just moved out aged 19 and was spending a lot of time alone as my then-boyfriend was living in Southampton. He became my little furry best pal and he's followed me about ever since. I feel like he doesn't get enough air time as he is mostly either asleep or eating, so when Whiskas wanted to work on this post I naturally jumped at the chance.
I think cats are the perfect pets, especially for us younger folk living in London. Whilst a dog is a huge commitment (not that a cat isn't!) a cat is more of a nice, calm best friend that just exists in your home, loves chin rubs and will often sleep on the pillow next to you. They don't require walking, love sharing a roast chicken with you (in moderation). He loves being on the bed as Pepe isn't allowed up here and will simply go insane if you get out any piece of string he could potentially grab. Including, but not limited to, raw hemmed jeans and dressing gown ropes.
His favourite snacks are Whiskas Temptations, especially the cheesy ones but he'll take any to be quite honest, and will always opt for wet food over dry. Even though he has to deal with both. He likes to hop on the kitchen work surface and is entertained for hours by simply looking out of the window.
Anyway, I thought I'd do a few pro's to having a cat in London in case you're on the fence:
  1. Small and furry, and mostly love snuggles (on their own accord, never yours mind)
  2. Thinks every day is Christmas when you put down food
  3. Sometimes purr just when you look at them
  4. Clean and look after themselves pretty much, very independent animals
  5. Enjoy time alone and are suited to being indoors
  6. Will play with any length of string-like material
  7. Has very cute beans on the end of their legs that are nice to look at when you're sad (see picture above)
So there's my little ode to Bear, my first born son. 


Post in collaboration with WHISKAS® but all thoughts and gushing about cats my own.
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a chat
Copenhagen Copenhagen
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Hi guys! Been a hot minute since I just had a chat with you all, and I feel like I've got so much to say so this will either be really long winded, or not. We shall see.

So, what's new with me? Nothing much has changed since my last update (here). I'm still very much loved up with my lovely, super, fab boyfriend. I have an inane fear of mentioning him, or how happy I am for fear that something will go wrong and I'll have to announce I'm single again lol but that being said, I really don't think that's on the cards with this one. He's a real good egg and I think I just need to chill the fuck out and enjoy what's going on. We've just booked New York for March, followed by a week in Tulum and I can't wait!

We also just got back from Copenhagen which was an absolute dream weekend. We did lots of eating, drinking and a little cycling, and naturally I vlogged the entire trip so that'll be up on Sunday for ya!

Speaking of YouTube, I've actually been trying to get some more content up as I do really enjoy it. I just find it hard to find a place for what I want to create, as well as finding the time and skill to make what I have in my head. I'd love if you had a little look, or even subscribe ya know...

I'm also really honing in on what I want to wear and creating a space that I love alongside that. I am going through a major cull of my wardrobe, furniture and general house so that I can live in a slightly more minimal space, and have a more 'staple' type wardrobe. I've come to the resolution that I'm not happy with clutter and extreme mass of stuff. That's not for a weird spiritual reason, or anything else lame. I'm just simply a bit fed up of what I have and how much I have of it. I'm also absolutely obsessing over Arket at the moment, which is late to the party but you know. Better late than never. 
Off the back of that, a few of my pals and I are hoping to hold a big sale of some good bits during November so keep your eyes peeled for that!

Lastly worth noting, I am going to try a keto diet. It's no secret I'm unhappy with how I look, as I talk about it all the time (more on that in a post soon) but above that my M.E goes into overdrive around this time of year and I've been recommended it by a few people off the back of this video I made. It sounds like a bloody nightmare given that I thrive on carbs and I am basically a walking cup of sugary tea, but if it a) helps me to slim down to where I'm happy again, and b) improves my CFS then I have to give it a go. The best part is that Kim is going to do it with me, told you he was fab.

Anyway, I think that's about it. What's going on with you guys?

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Moving past a break up
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Another post no-one asked for, but here I am. Every time I write these kind of posts I always get flooded with messages from girls in the same boat, out of a long term relationship or newly single and trying to navigate dating and it makes me so happy that some of you can relate. The main thing I get asked/told is that I made the 'getting over' process look simple and "how on earth do I move on when it feels like life is ending?" - so I thought I'd write about it. In fairness too, I went through two break ups last year and I think the latter was harder, despite being for a far shorter time so it's all dependent on the situation.

A lil disclaimer that I am actually happily with someone new now, so while this doesn't currently apply - it did at one time in my life. 


Let's do this in a bullet point format, they're nice to layout.

    1. Keep busy. Like yes, obvious. Most of these are. Everyone tells you to keep yourself busy when you're newly single but it really is the most important factor in trying to claw back some happiness. I was finishing my degree when everything went pear shaped, so I didn't have the opportunity to slow down and spend days wallowing. Of course you're allowed to be sad, and have the odd day where you want to lie in bed and eat pizza but try and limit them.
    2. Start dating. A controversial one at best, but I have always found online dating to be the key to a) keeping myself occupied at random times friends were busy and also b) stopping you thinking about your ex. It doesn't necessarily mean you need to jump into bed with people, nor even go on dates - but there is a weird void that friends can't fill when you're newly single and simply put, sometimes you need someone to make you feel good about yourself and a lil bit confident. Sometimes aimlessly scrolling alone can be therapeutic enough, but I really found getting out and meeting new people helped me to feel better about myself and the situation I was in.
    3. Self care. Another obvious one, but again sometimes one we overlook. Take time to use a face mask while you're getting ready for bed, and keep your toenails polished. Seems so lacklustre but I even found putting fake tan on made me feel better about myself. I'd completely forgotten the point in doing these things if it wasn't for someone else, and it was mildly refreshing doing them for no one but me. Cute pants everyday, and what?
    4. Know you're better. A difficult one, because every break up is circumstantial, and no one might be in the wrong etc etc. But with mine, I wasn't in the wrong. I'd done everything I could to be a good girlfriend and still been treated badly. With that, I needed to walk away with my head held high knowing I'd been the better person, and eventually things go full circle, with everything happening for a reason. A year and a bit later, I met someone else who is everything I was looking for when I least expected it - living proof in that phrase lads.
    5. Focus on the whole. I've had people message me like "oh I've had the same happen to me, but you're only 23 (24 now) and I'm 30, you'll be fine - you're still young" and I think this is because people only look at the immediate. Yeah, it's pants to be 30 and newly single when all your friends are settling down and getting married but the real harsh reality is, would you want to be with someone who didn't love you? Or who cheated on you? Or didn't treat you right... just so you weren't single? After eight years it literally felt like I was back at the bottom when I became single, but the reality is, it's probably the best thing that ever happened to me and just know it might be for you too.
    6. Live now. The last one, but with having ME and also being a notorious 'no' gal, I felt like I let so many things slide and pass me by when I was with someone. I had to learn to say yes to things I wasn't sure I'd have the energy for, and go out when I really didn't fancy it. It lead to so many new memories, a tonne of new friends and just a hell of a lot of fun. I'd randomly end up out for drinks on a Tuesday night with half an hours notice - not getting home until 2am and it was bloody revitalising. You need to just stop worrying about the future and the what-if's and sometimes just forget it all. I was constantly plagued with 'how will I ever buy a house now?' and 'what if I don't ever meet anyone else?' and the reality is, you can't worry about it as there's nothing you can do to control it.
Anyway, I hope that was vaguely entertaining if you're going through a hard time. I really can relate, and I can also vouch that it will always get better. Promise!

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